imagination.

we went out fishing today, it was really windy though. storm clouds above, threats of rain, questions of thunder or lightning.....well, it wasn't quite that bad. we made it fun.
matthew and i went up to the bow and put the cover on, because water was coming in on us and we made a little fort. i know, it sounds really immature but there wasn't any fish biting and we were wet and we were having fun with it.
we made some videos of what to do in case of an emergency, you know cause we were stuck down in the bow with the cover on. we had a talk show hahaha and we made a little couch on the floor. good times, good times. but it's nice to act like a little kid once in a while. it keeps your imagination alive...and you never want to lose that.

appearance.

today, i decided to wear my yellow shirt. i think that it looks good with my blonde hair. everytime i walk past the bathroom, i stop and look to see how beautiful my eyes are today, and how my hair perfectly swishes when i walk....
yeah right! that is so not how i choose my clothes or what i do everytime i walk past a mirror or window, but it is somewhat true. i do care about appearance too much. it's sad, because in the end it doesn't matter at all. all that matters is that we lived our life for GOD.


[1 Samuel 16:7] But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not look at his appearance or at his physical stature, because I have refused him. For the LORD does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."

oh man. so tired.
today i woke up so early, just to go water skiing. the lake was so pretty and clear, like glass. it sort of looked like a painting. just a teeny.
well, i got up there nicely. first time in two years. pretty exciting. i was a little unstable. i stayed up for quite a bit, which was really nice. but then i wiped out and it hurt bad. oh man. oh man oh man oh man. it hurt. so i tried knee boarding. i didn't like it as much only because it was really hard to get on the board and get your knees in the strap. i had to get my dad to help me. i just couldn't do it. it was really frustrating me. we went for another ride this afternoon though, that was interesting. we started off from the shallow but it was really rough out there so i let go. i didn't want to be pulled back so i tried getting on myself. in the deep. so hard! and i kept getting frustrated, and to be honest with you, i took it out on my mom. i don't like when that happens. i don't even really see myself doing it, i just let it all out. i couldn't get on the board by myself and when i finally got up there a bit, she tried to straighten the rope out and i fell off again. it was so frustrating. and i'm sorry to say it but i took it out on someone else.
eventually, i got up there by myself and had a nice ride before dinner. but i just felt so bad. i'm just so thankful to have a loving, merciful, and forgiving GOD to wipe away that feeling of...guilt. and i'm so grateful to have a caring mom, who still loves me just the same if not more than yesterday.

matthew wore this shirt today that says, "body piercing saved my life". so true.

[isaiah 53:5] "But HE was wounded for our transgressions, HE was bruised for our iniquities; the chastisement of our peace was upon HIM, and by HIS stripes we are healed."

so even though i take my anger out on someone or something else sometimes, even though i shouldn't...JESUS paid it all.
i love that song.

songs

up here in the okanagan, everything is so fresh. the lake, the trees, the beaches, the mountains, i love it! and i just think, how great is our GOD that he came up with all these beautiful natural wonders of the earth. but then again, i think, how much greater it will be in HIS glorious kingdom in heaven.
i walked outside and was immediately hit by the most beautiful song...no one was singing, it was coming from the tall tree in front of me. it was absolutely gorgeous. i stood there for a few moments, just listening to the voice of GOD's wonderful creation. they sounded so joyful and grateful for their great surroundings, and i thought just how thankful i am to be able to come and relax in a place like this. with the golden beaches, blue waves, and the breeze that is just right so that it doesn't blow my hat off, but it keeps me cool. it's amazing how perfect everything is.
i mean, even as we were camping up at alouette lake, everything seemed just incredible. the way the trees fell to the ground, the way the stumps stood ever so strongly, the way the birds flew in between the many branches, the way the rocks fell ever so gracefully, it was just amazing. even the way the leaves swayed as they floated to the earth, all i could do was sit back and thank GOD that i was so close to this pretty nature. i was amazed at how the mountains and forests and creatures of the earth right then were quietly singing songs of joy and praise to the ONE who made this all so awesome. after thousands of years, it all remained just as perfect as ever. and beautiful.
our GOD is so great.

isaiah 44.23 -- Sing, O heavens, for the LORD has done it! Shout, you lower parts of the earth; break forth into singing, you mountains, O forest, and every tree in it! For the LORD has redeemed Jacob, and glorified HIMSELF in Israel.

psalms 103:1-5

bless the LORD, o my soul; and all that is within me, bless HIS holy name! bless the LORD, o my soul, and forget not all his benefits: who forgives all your iniquities, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from destruction, who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies, who satisfies your mouth with good things, so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

one of the very hard things in life is trying to find a name for your blog. it took me forever. because the name you choose is the name that you stick with, right? no, i discovered with this blog that you can change all of your options and screen names and what not whenever you want. oh well, i'm happy now with my name.

>tata

my past blogs have never worked, hopefully this one will.